An Apology...and a Little Hope

Filed in archive Latina Musings on December 27, 2006

Here I am again. I've been absent the last days, and I want to tell you - chica o chico who read this blog - the reasons of my absence.

I believe a good blog is a sort of agreement, between the blogger and the readers. The blogger agrees to write on a regular basis, and the readers agree to drop by, read the posts, leave comments and provide feedback. A blog can't survive if one of those parts is missing.

Besides that, I am committed to give my best to this blog, every day, in every post. I haven't been able to fully accomplish this in the last weeks, and that makes me very sad and frustrated. There was very little I could have done about it: I wasn't even home. I was at the hospital, taking care of a relative.

Can you imagine? On top of all the hurry and haste of Holidays preparations, one of my loved ones was ill; my family had to face the fear of loosing one of it's members. During these awful days, I was out of my home, eating almost nothing, sleeping in shifts, stressed and exhausted.

December was a really bad month. Many big problems piled up (having a sick relative was the worst of all), and I almost gave up. I cried a lot. Last night I was ready to quit; I felt overwhelmed with stress and despair.

Then, something happened. I can't really explain, but somebody up there (you know where) saw my pain and my sorrow, and sent me a sign. I was at my little terrace, crying my eyes out, and I looked to the sky for just one moment. At that exact second, a shooting star blazed before my eyes.

This may sound silly, but was a really special moment to me. I've never seen a shooting star before in my life. Can you believe that? I felt like somebody was listening, and was telling me to carry on, because everything is going to be ok. That gave me new hope.

So, I won't be quitting any time soon. :)